Random string of stressful thoughts in 1… 2… 3… go!
- Every day I make my ginormous list of to do’s for the day and every day about 3 o’clock I freak out because OHMYGAWD I haven’t accomplished anything!
- My father’s 60th birthday was Saturday and, because I am the best daughter in the whole wide world, I am just going to
attempt toship his gift today. I am that awesome. - My laundry is taking over the house. And I am going to wear pajamas to the grocery store today. Not because I am super cool. Oh no. Because I have no clean pants.
- Last week about 4:30am, Tank woke me up to tell me that his jeep was broken. Oh and also that it was actually the driveshaft that broke and caused the jeep to roll backwards down the driveway and take out our mailbox. Oh and also, it almost took out our neighbors HOUSE. Good times.
- Then not 10 minutes later my phone rang and hubs was informing me that when he stopped to fill my truck up with gas on his way to work he learned that his credit card number had been stolen and our bank account completely drained. Super!
- I have realized that my house is too big. It is too much to clean. It is too much to cool in this god awful heat. It is mostly sitting empty because there is no reason a family of our size needs almost 4 thousand square feet. Time to downsize. Which means… Holy crap now time to find another place and time to … {gulp} … pack. {cringe}
- My computer is still busted. And now I get to reinstall Windows 7. Cause that is a beast I wanted to take on. Awesome.
- I am seriously stressing about breastfeeding. It seems like I can’t make enough milk and all I am doing is stressing about it 24/7. The kicker is that the entire time I am also saying how I refuse to let this all stress me out. That Monk lived on formula just fine and that if Rocky has to do the same then so be it. But of course, I am not listening to myself at all and instead just stressing the fuck out!!!
- Speaking of nursing. My little blogging copilot just informed me that we are done typing and it is time to eat. So I am going to plop on my usual spot on the couch. Maybe I can get to UPS later?
- {sigh}
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Twitter ID: mishelle42
July 3, 2012 at 12:39 pm
Hey Babe, it’s really hard to let go and go to formula. It is even if your head has worked it out – I cried the whole time Allie had her 1st bottle, she sucked that thing dry faster than 2 minutes and belched like a truck driver after a bowl of spicy chili – she was out like a light faster than I could blink and all I could do – ALL – I could do is just cry. I had tried so hard to breast feed – I have 40 DD chest for christ’s sake why the hell couldn’t I?!?! This just wasn’t fair. It was worse when I figured out how much she was hungry while I tried to breast feed and failed as she wasn’t getting enough no matter how hard I tried.
I felt like the worst failure for a good while afterwards though I’d've be damned if I told anyone that. She grew, she fed and best of all she slept and yet, every time I mixed the bottle I felt like the world’s biggest failure. Then one day it hit me, between the two of us we couldn’t do this but we were doing the other mommy-child things fine and she was calmer when I was calmer and not so stressed over feeding her, and I had to let go of it.
The only one that looked at me funny was me (oh and the right-winged uber breast feeders who kept telling me to plug onwards – and I’ve learned to tune them out, mostly… yeah, I know – they are 12 and 9 WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY past breastfeeding but the odd dig still makes me feel bad and there are people who have to feel superior ALL the freaking time who enjoy picking at people so they can feel superior) and once I just figured out is was better let go I did. Don’t get me wrong, for the bulk of her 1st year the back of my head had the guilts but she’s fine. Formula is good too.
Wow. Where did THAT rant come from!?!? Oh yeah.. mother guilt.
Crap about the credit card and jeep though! Damn, in all that heat you have to pack and find a new home?
I really do wish I could help.
M
Twitter ID: beerandpie
July 8, 2012 at 7:23 am
Ugh, I hope life gets less stressful for you. And soon!
Don’t beat yourself up about your to-do list. I don’t speak from authority (yet!), but I’ve been told that having a baby attached to your boob 24/7 makes it rather difficult to get other things done. Enjoy this precious time with Rocky. Who cares about your laundry! That’s why God invented all of the technology to allow us to order new underwear off of the internet.
Not that I ever bought new underwear instead of doing laundry….
Hope´s last [type] ..Further Proof That I am a Total Goofball
Ummm, how did I miss all of this? Also, stress will inhibit your milk production so stop stressing! Love you!