I am sitting at my desk briefly because I don’t want my feet to swell up to melon size awesomeness. In the background I hear Monk counting his cars. 62, 63, 64….
I was just sitting here thinking about how in just a few days everything is going to be different. From all the sounds of the house to… well… everything about life. It is all about to change.
I am 36 weeks along today. I have been having a much easier time this pregnancy than the last. But the constant threat of pre-eclampsia has always been there.
Apparently that time has come again. I haven’t gotten the super high blood pressure but I am dumping high amounts of protein in my urine. Which means that they are very concerned my blood pressure could spike at any moment. When I was induced with Monk, my blood pressure was 198/102. The fear of that occurring again is never far from my mind.
Right now the plan is to check my urine again and then proceed with an amnio next week. If the amnio shows that his lungs are mature, then we will proceed with induction next week.
I am petrified of a GIANT needle going into my stomach!
I am trying to focus on the fact that Monk was born just two days from now. He came at 36 weeks and 2 days. And he was healthy and strong. Rocky will be healthy and strong too. I just know it. But I can’t help but keep going back to this needle.
Every fiber of my being says that it is a bad idea. That I don’t need it. That it is unnecessary. I think I should talk to the doctor about it but I honestly don’t know if she will just think I am crazy or what.
The wealth of emotions flowing through me right now are immense. I am having a hard time even thinking about getting out of my pajamas today. Let alone all of the other things I should be focusing on before baby comes next week. {gulp}
Am I ready for this???
I better strap on my boots, because I damn sure have to be.
{deep breath}
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My little Ryann was born at 36 weeks. She was a perfect 9lbs. 13oz.(thanks to my type 1 diabetes). They were supposed to poke the needle in me too! I didn’t like the idea. Luckily my doc decided just to take her chances that the baby was ready. Good call on her part. Go with gut feeling. Everything will be great! Sending you big hugs and well wishes during this crazy time of preparing for baby.
xoxo!
Dear Cassie,
I totally understand your fear of that needle, but let me tell you this: it’s gonna be ok! I’ve had amnio for both kids, and it’s far from awful really. You don’t get to see the needle unless you want to, and you just feel a little pinch when they insert it, but nothing unbearable. It does not last very long either, but after you will need to rest probably laying down on your back. I know when the pregnancy comes to an end, everything is so overwhelming, the joy and fear feelings of that new adventure mix up together and we don’t always think straight, but I’m sure you are gonna be just fine and so is baby Rocky. Think about all the joy he’s about to bring into your life, and you’ll know this exam is totally worth it for his well being. If you need to talk, I’m right there … Be strong mama, your new little prince is just a few days away now and he’s probably getting impatient to be in your arms!
Awww!!! Thank you so much Anne!! You are so kind and sweet. I appreciate it more than you know!!!
Twitter ID: AimeeWrites
April 26, 2012 at 11:04 am
BIG hugs. BIG, deep breaths. I understand your concerns…been there. Done that. Have several t-shirts, actually.
Don’t have any advice, just support. Everything WILL be well.
(But preeclampsia sucks. No way around that. Now I put my advocate’s hat on and remind you to watch yourself for signs after Rocky comes, and you’re home. Sometimes the disease sets in post-delivery, and that’s equally dangerous. Sure you know this already, but I like to make sure the bases are covered.)
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Thank you! All was well. Whew!
Twitter ID: RandomBlogette
April 26, 2012 at 11:27 am
I understand your fears sweetie. I have never had an amnio so I don’t know what to tell you but if you are truly concerned, talk to your doctor. I had Paige just at 36 weeks and all of the scary stuff they prepared me for never happened. It was such a relief. Everything will be fine. I cannot wait too see your new handsome little man! HUGS!!
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He was perfect! Yay!!
Twitter ID: mishelle42
April 26, 2012 at 11:55 am
Babe, with so much to worry about live in your damn pjs!! I’m all for it.
The needle and thought of an amnio would freak me out as well but it could be so much worse – you could be on forced bedrest at the hospital instead you’re in your home and happy in pjs.
Terror is easy during pregnancy, working to calm it is hard but look at your gorgeous little boy – it’s worth finding your calm. I think you should talk to your Dr about it – if said Dr is worth his salt he will find a way to show you if it’s really necessary AND calm you so that you can come thru it ok. Pregnant crazy women (and I was one, twice!) are something those Drs can talk to to calm. God knows the Drs at the IWK had their hands full with me as they tried to explain why I had tested positive for spina bifida at 21 weeks… to calm me down before they did the ultrasound as I wouldn’t let them touch me without explaining it to me first. They did calm me down, but most of it was just getting out the fear… fear is nasty.
I wish I was there to help. Yeah, I know, never met you face to face but so want to help.
M
Didn’t have to have the amnio, yay!!! XOXO
You all are in my thoughts and prayers. Exciting times.
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Thanks!!!!
Twitter ID: beerandpie
April 26, 2012 at 8:53 pm
You *can* do this!!!
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You will too, very soon